From what hides within.
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From what hides within I went through the maze of school To be nobody?s fool. I wish you had known me then Then you would have known What I knew back then. Yet I grew shy Too afraid to cry Inside I screamed Yet I knew the tears undried Scarred the heart of life Yet soon they would be Part of the soul Remaining till later Only to be hid from view Misunderstood by many I wanted to say hi Not to cry Not to sigh Just to wish you well Not for other reason Tried to imagine what you would do Tried to think what you could see When you look at me The unkind words often escaped The mouths of others snickering Was I so different I pondered Had the deep hurts tarnished My being to make me so disdainful That I would be the one to scorn Have I done them harm in some way. Yet I just went to my home Let my feelings blurt out there Hoping they werent? around To continue some more To hurt again the way they do I only wanted to be me Wanted what others had A home, a family, a life To live as I do To have a smile, a friend , a love. I guess when you have to hide All the good wonder inside No one can see No one tries to care I guess if the did they might love I guess one day the being Called me will find The one human in kind Will look past the outer shell And look at the inner me to see Till then I will smile inside Wish love and light to them Hope for the best with hope Not let the light of inner love Die with in until the truth be shown. By Doris Ridge mendlovitz.
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Good one Deloris Mountaintops
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Thank you love doris
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Doris...thanks so much for sharing that poem with us...I so enjoy reading your poems!
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Thanks love doris
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Doris I love your poem. I can totally relate to it on a personal level as well as see it on a macrocosmic level. Thanks 4 sharing.
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Nice poem Doris I am sure the experience as tough as it felt ... made you the person that you are today ...... and I think you can look inside yourself and know that you turned out well
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yea I can thanks love doris
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The_Fool:
Nice poem Doris I am sure the experience as tough as it felt ... made you the person that you are today ...... and I think you can look inside yourself and know that you turned out well
On the same thoughts of learning lessons. A man whom I thought loved me and proposed a hand fasting wedding ceremony to me last year in the park on a beautiful sunny day, then proceeded to run out of town with no proper goodbye or decent explaination of why. Fast forward a year and one month later, and I have been alone. No dates, nothing, waiting to see if he returned. I am laying in bed with my hurt foot and thinking about this happening. I finally accepted the fact that he left me to hang out with girl(s) young enough to be his grand daughters at least, and does not even remember me. After all that talk about having a 'real' love he left for that. And then I had my nose rubbed in it all recently. So, I have learned I trust no one anymore. I truly feel 'NEWsed.' (no conncetion with Paul's album but I like to play with the word NEW now.) So yes, I have learned a lesson to be applied for the future. Because there must be someone out there who will truly love me and not use me and leave me for a superficial good time over true love. I think I will know that person when I see them in the future. And I hope whomever God has planned for me will hurry up and come for me. Amen.
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i started reworking old journal entrees and turning various portions into poems and this is one of them. It was in retrospective of being bullied as a child. love doris