"All Manner of Miseries, Topics, and Themes"
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of the signs, portents and omens
that take away some of death's sting
God sends miracles and "signs"
to let you know God is real,
like St. John the Divine on the Cross
to lift much of the burden of loss
yes, the Good Lord will send you some
signs, miracles, surprises
to let you know it's all real
Can't describe how that makes me feel
like St. John the Divine on the Cross,
a Christian mystic
God lifts much of the burden of loss
SUSY copyright 2018
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MY MAMA'S DEAD
(Inspired by "My Mummy's Dead" by John Lennon on his classic album "Plastic Ono Band")
My mama died
from cancer, last December
Nothing's left but dreams of her, and
the power of things remembered
I once heard her say that I'm
nice and kind and good
heard her talking on the phone
more often she told me I'm
sloppy, and messy, and dirty
but now that she's gone
that does not really hurt me
like it could,
not near as much as her leaving me, alone
'cause she'd converse for hours and hours with me
during our phone calls, when no-one else would
she'd load me down as a very young teen
with cleaning products and mops to clean the house
whenever she got so mad
I'd grow as meek and quiet as a mouse,
now I don't care how fierce and angry she'd get
I just wish she were here again
sometimes I feel so sad
she could be so funny and droll,
make witty unexpected remarks,
in many ways she had a lot of artistry and soul
I'm lost and floundering in the dark
now both my daddy and my mommy are gone
mama and daddy, come back,
I feel abandoned, afraid and alone
my mama died from cancer last December
not much left but her popping up in
so many of my sleeping dreams
and the power of things remembered
by Susy copyright 2013
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"You Got To Believe"
(Song)
You got to believe things will go
right sometime,
cause when they don't
Lord I get so scared, now,
it seems harder now, somehow
when something goes wrong
and you fear
maybe it can't be fixed
not with any sorts of
effective solutions, or tricks
so you decide
what's right and true
and that you will finally resort
to the right thing to do
and it will become habit
like a good kind of magic,
to do what you should have
done all along
then you won't have to
worry so hard
and can put things in a song again,
and say hey right thing
where you been for so long? again
all the times I did things wrong
I usually knew what was right,
but it just didn't seem
like it would be fun
(not everything can be fun)
and you will find satisfaction
in small battles being won
and hope they don't notice '
all your defects and scars
maybe some of the wounds will heal
cause you want them to,
so much
remember you thought you'd get stronger
living without the basic human touch
and your wounds will heal
when you don't think about
them so much
SUSY copyright 2018
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Don't Laugh At Love
(new song)
Don't Laugh at love
I know you're smart enough
not to laugh at love,
I know you say you're not my kind
and my sort of "fan" love for you
can't be really real,
but my actions, my words,
show how I feel
and exhibit what's in my mind
I'd thought upon first hearing of you, "I will love him, he
is special," without even seeing you
so my initial feeling
of fondness was blind
and in its own way is true
no one must ever hurt you
you've already been hurt enough,
but you know all the slings and arrows
made you get more tough
and things you had to hear
that were really, really rough
I don't begrudge you any perks
in life, knowing how you've
been hurt in life
I'm glad for you, I'm sad for you,
I'm not bad for you,
so please don't laugh at my love
Susy copyright 2018
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Bringing this back up to the top for someone to see